Tuesday, May 28, 2013

Rikk's Clips.

So I screen shot all types of crap on my phone..DAILY. From things that inspire me to funny memes I just want to have on my phone to randomly send to someone just to make them laugh.

Lately I have been seeing some KILLER shoes on Tumblr, IG and all that jazz, but I'm like...I need to step my game up or something because some of these shoes look like they are from the fifth element I swear lol

But it isssss about to be Sunmer (is it already summer yet? Lol) but I think it's time for Rikk to do some shoe shopping...I thought I would share with you guys a few things I screen shotted in the past couple of days..hours..mins lol

I need 2 of the 3!

ForeverRikk,
Xoxo


Thursday, May 23, 2013

Say Hello To Forever...


I have been absent from all of my social outlets (besides FB/IG) but as far as in my blog and YouTube channel, I have gone. For many reason's. But I am about to embark on a journey and I would love for the world to join/follow my life as I grow and change. 

I have been going through A LOT of changes guys, you wouldn't even believe. I have been on a roller coaster to say the least. From relocating to an entire different state, out of the blue, to moving out ON MY OWN in this state that I know nothing about, but life is a journey right? That's how I see it. 

I believe in destiny and purpose, we all have a purpose here on earth and we are all destined to do something to change something or someone while we are here. For those of you who do not know my story, I will share a little bit of it.

When I was 2 years old, my mother passed away. She left me here along with my sister who is only 11 months other than I am. So here you have 2 motherless children, left in a house with the corpse of their mothers’ body for about 2-3 days before someone even realized that they have not heard from us in a while. From stories I have been told, one of my aunts (on my mother's side), came by the house and no one was answering the door when she was trying to get in, so a concern was raised, and somehow the door was knocked down to get inside of the house, and that is when they discovered my mothers' body laying in bed, with an imprint of my body on hers, from where I had been going back to lay down with her each night as if she was still alive. They also saw a trail of crackers or cookies from the kitchen to the bedroom, where my sister had been trying to feed me, since she was 3 years old; she was tall enough to reach into the cabinets. 

I am not able to give a full account of everything that went on since I really have no memory of this incident, I am just paraphrasing stories I've heard from family members. But to make a long story short My sister, Mother, Father and I were living in Alabama at this time, but after her death, my sister and I moved to Illinois with my father and was raised with his side of the family. 

A few years passed after my mothers' death, before we saw or heard from her side of the family. I don't really know what was going on between each side of my family, BUT I'm sure it had something to do with my mother's death, and her royalties (which to this day is still a mystery to me...) 

My mother was a WELL-established woman, serving in the U.S. National Guard, recipient of 2 degrees (BA, MBA), a member of Delta Sigma Theta Sorority Inc. and most of all an educator for our school system. 

As I grew older, I just wanted to know more and more about this "mystery woman" who I have heard so many great stories about, and who countless people tell me I have her smile, I just wanted (and still do) to know who is this woman who people say I remind them of? 

Well who better to know more about this information than, the people who knew her best? My mothers’ side of the family. I have always been distant with this side of my family, purely from an unconscious association with them being some sort of "bad people".  I never knew much about what was going on with them except for when my sister and I started spending summers in Alabama (which I HATED.... once again because I was never giving it a chance). 

Well, last year, around this time EXACTLY, I was going through a deep depression while I was in IL. NO ONE knew about this, not my sister's (who are MY BEST FRIENDS) not my roommate, not even myself. I really did not know that I, Rikki, was suffering from depression. No way. Right?

Well YES WAY, sheesh lol it was real y'all, and I had masked the depression so well that I fooled myself into thinking that life was FINE! I grew up in a household where you weren't taught about "depression" and "stress" and "anxiety". I honestly think that most middle class African American homes are lacking the education of these illnesses to their children, but that's another post for another day. Anywho, how I grew up...if you were "Stressed Out"...you better pray about it. "Depressed"...YA BETTA PRAY ABOUT IT! ..."SHUT UP AND PRAY ABOUT IT!!!" (My cousins are going to DIE laughing at this) but seriously. This was my life. So here I am, praying, praying and praying. Keeping my faith and calling everyone I KNEW who could get a prayer through to pray with/for me! 

Well the day I felt like I was going to give up, I received a phone call from my uncle who lives in Alabama (my mothers youngest brother) giving me the opportunity to come and move to Alabama, stay with him and his wife, and live rent free, stress free, for however long I needed them. Whelp, lets just say, ya girl hopped on the firth thing smoking to Alabama and left Illinois in the DUST. 

WELLLLLLL, like I said earlier, life is a journey FULL of learning experiences. And this move to Alabama was def a L E A R N I N G E X P E R I E N C E for me. I won’t go into great detail, but although I appreciate the concern and everything my aunt and uncle did for me while I was living with them. That living situation was NOT FOR ME. I felt like I was in a boarding house for needy children. I was not the only other adult that lived in that house besides my aunt and uncle either. So it was just, ……we will just leave it there.

So I did what any other headstrong young adult would have done, and moved out, on my own right at the 6-month mark, and it was probably one of the most rewarding things I have done in a while. My life has been on a roll since I have come into my own pace and space and have been able to explore this foreign place without boundaries from ANYONE or ANYTHING. I just feel so free. I feel like I am finding my purpose and living my destiny. 

I have recently decided to spend this summer in Miami FLA to perfect my craft in photography and in anything of the ARTS, but I will be focusing on photog. I would love if you guys would join me and watch me grow.

Love Always,
ForeverRikk


Sunday, April 14, 2013

Back like Crack.

Yes I'm back after 7 long and gruesome months of not blogging (what in heck?!) I'm finally back.
I really do not know where to begin but I will just start by saying, I missed writing so much and I will try my est to stay on top of it, keeping you guys updated on my daily lifestyle and the great things/people that surround me.

Tuesday, September 4, 2012

Positive Impact.


My labor day was filled with PAINTING...PAINTING and more PAINTING....for my aunts middle school cheerleaders...I freaking love these little girls. They kind of remind me of myself when I was their age. They have the same problems, similar conversations, it's just in a new generation. I have gained a connection with a couple of the girls and they call me their big sister...I'm not really the type to show favoritism so I try to correct them because I know the feeling of being left out, and I never want anyone to feel that way! So I make sure I let them know that I love them equally 

So yesterday they had a 4 hour practice ON Labor Day...they needed it though. Today is their first game and I am so excited for them! This is some of their first times ever doing something like this and I just LOVE to see young ladies actually doing something positive and tasteful. Cheerleading was an experience for me and it showed me a lot of new things because I was not used to being around such a diverse group of girls. It showed me that YES black girls can cheer and we can actually be darn good at it. Although I never stuck with it, it wasn't because I wasn't good at it, it's because my passion was in another sport.

 I am just elated that my aunt is able to give these girls this opportunity because I actually talk to a few of the girls and they seriously look forward to being able to come to practice and be in a SAFE and POSITIVE environment because some of them are less fortunate than others. I myself once were in those shoes, not having support from parents while all the others parents were at every game and it seriously would put me down at times, but it never got the best of me. I continued to do something that keep me busy and I gained so many friends and opportunities in the midst of it all. 

My Cheer Days: 
That's me at the base!
 Being a cheerleader gave me opportunites to be apart of things I never thought I could do like, acting. I was picked to play a cheerleader in the famous musical, High School Musical my senior year of High School.



Being a Cornball


I will be at the game tonight on the sideline cheering for them, while they cheer on the Westlawn Warrior football team. I am glad that young ladies see me as a mentor and someone they can talk to, and I let them know that they can talk to me about ANYTHING. I was 14 and 15 before also, and I will only tell them what is right. 

These girls are TREMENDOUS :) 


Westlawn Warriors!


Peace & Love

Monday, September 3, 2012

Where Have You Been All My Life?

AHHHHHHH!!!!! Seriously, I hate when I have these 3 month hiatus's and its like....Where in the world have you been Rikk??? Ok, well I have been ....doing the most, to say the least. Don't want to get into too many details but in the last 3 months I have ....changed TREMENDOUSLY.

 To go in order, I spent my entire summer in my Hometown, Champaign IL....Relocated my LIFE to Alabama, and CUT MY HAIR. Yes...I did a big chop for numerous reasons. Most of my hair was damaged due to stress and just me not taking care of my hair. But this time around I shall take care of my tresses. 

I have not really updated my Youtube channel in about 3 months either.....just because my hair....was becoming more important to me than more important things in my life. Such as, my faith and relationship with GOD, and my family. I was spending so much time on my hair and making sure it's "perfect" to please....others who I don't even know. Not to say that I, myself didn't want my hair to look good, but it just wasn't as important to me anymore. This time in my life has become critical for me to gain a better understanding in God, and less in what new product is out and what will make my twist out look great and all that jazz. 

Not saying that I will never make videos again. I just needed a break. The art of humbling YOURSELF and not having to have someone else do it for you is so liberating. I seriously felt like I was setting a standard for some people and I do not believe that I was in the position to have that power. Social networks are SO powerful and people are so caught up into the blogs, vlogs, tweets, IG posts, etc. That they don't know that those people are individuals with real life problems too. 

So after I cut my hair...The RED hair was GONE :( Yes I was sad...not about cut...but I did miss my color. So I dealt with the black hair for a few weeks. ...but I am a woman of color. So I did color my hair Honey Blonde. And I Love it. 

Humbling yourself does NOT mean I still can't be fly. It's just not my first love. That's the lesson I learned. 


Peace & Love

The "Ninja" Bun

So yeah don't kil me for not being on here in a while, but man has my life been....well hectic. So yeah I really haven't been able to update as much as I like, but I promise I will do my best to post as often as I can while I'm dealing with what I'm dealing with right now. For those who follow me on Youtube, I apologize for not being able to post videos also :( 

THIS WILL ALL CHANGE SOON THOUGH....NO WORRIES! 

Ok, Back to the post. 


The "Ninja" Bun has most def become one of this summer's most sought after trends and there are some Ninja bun masters and some are just.....an epic fail in my book. But nonetheless, I believe that my bun is pretty decent, just because I've been wearing this style since cheerleading days back in high school, but back then....we just called it the "Messy Bun". Now people have to throw official names on stuff...smh.

But I straightened my hair recently and since the weather has been so darn humid here in Central Illinois, I had to put it up in the old trustee bun. 





Peace & Love.

Monday, May 21, 2012

A Night Out.

School's  out. I missed a few friends. We drove to Chicago. Got it in. Woke up. Back to reality. Whomp Whomp. 






Stay Wrighteous.
XOXO.
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